THE DECEIT

I was at a shoe store today shopping for, obviously, shoes for myself. Another customer entered through the door- a man who smiled at me as he entered. I was confused but still, I smiled back. He kept smiling and staring at me. I moved to another rack. He still stared, and smiled. You must know how it feels to have someone continuously watching over you while you are trying to do something. I felt worse because the person watching was not known to me. The whole situation, I felt, was pure weird.

While I was trying to escape his gaze by switching over from one rack to another, I heard the woman who accompanied him ask the helper at the shop to show 'school shoes' for him. He wasn't a man after all. He was just a kid whose body had deceived him by racing ahead of his mind. Now, I'm glad I had smiled back.

THE TERRIBLE

He held my hand and then held me close to him. He couldn't comprehend anything beyond his desire and I felt uncomfortable because he held me too tight and it hurt. I tried to loosen his grip but was too weak for him. I asked him to. He did not. He was breathing so heavily that I wondered if he could even hear me. He moved his hand under my shirt and fondled all that was there. He pressed them so hard that it gave me a pain. For a girl who was herself not well acquainted with the new developments in her body, it was an unbearable pain, one that can never be erased off her mind. If the maid hadn't come in time, I dread to think what could have happened.
That day, I made a great mistake. I was home alone and I let my uncle in. But that wasn't the only mistake I made. I never told anyone about it. The beast still comes to my house. Perhaps, he is unaware that I still remember all of it. Perhaps, he breathes out his shame while he breathes in beastliness.

There are happy times and there are sad times and there are times that you don't know about. They might turn anyways all of a sudden. I'll talk about each one of them here@UNHUSHED because I really need to share'em with you and because I might not be able to tell it to anybody else.

Maybe because I had an argument with my boyfriend or maybe because my friend distrusted me or maybe for no reason at all, I wrote it in the Microwave n Radar lecture today.

Feelings risen
or
Thoughts faded

Head confused
or
Heart jaded

Dreams born
or
Hopes crushed

I shall always

stay unhushed