He held my hand and then held me close to him. He couldn't comprehend anything beyond his desire and I felt uncomfortable because he held me too tight and it hurt. I tried to loosen his grip but was too weak for him. I asked him to. He did not. He was breathing so heavily that I wondered if he could even hear me. He moved his hand under my shirt and fondled all that was there. He pressed them so hard that it gave me a pain. For a girl who was herself not well acquainted with the new developments in her body, it was an unbearable pain, one that can never be erased off her mind. If the maid hadn't come in time, I dread to think what could have happened.
That day, I made a great mistake. I was home alone and I let my uncle in. But that wasn't the only mistake I made. I never told anyone about it. The beast still comes to my house. Perhaps, he is unaware that I still remember all of it. Perhaps, he breathes out his shame while he breathes in beastliness.
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It is a brave attempt on ur part to share such pains wid othrs-it is also fair because such things should'nt be burried in the heart.
ReplyDeletei really think u shud tell ur parents bout it... who knows wat he might do next...
ReplyDeletesormita,it is not only to share my pain but it is also to affirm the fact that no one in this world today is to be blindly trusted.
ReplyDeletemeiguoren, you are right but I don't have the heart to tell anyone because now he has a daughter and I don't want her life to get affected.
Sormita,meiguoren, thank you so much for your concern.
i must say that you have a done very courageous thing by sharing this experience like this. i agree with the person above that you must tell this to your parents or maybe someone whom you trust the most.
ReplyDeletei probably won't be able to exactly understand what you have and you are going through. i know that it will be very difficult to tell this to someone whom you know, but you should definitely not keep it with yourself. by not telling anybody you're giving a message to that person that he can behave with you like this whenever he wants to. you should expose that person and thus, give him a big warning so that he doesn't behave like this again.
you're right about the concern for that person's daughter, but that doesn't mean that you allow him to misbehave with you. may be you could tell someone in such a way that her daughter doesn't get to know about it. who knows, probably he might have done the same with his daughter too. you never know.
but just be careful in the future. take care!
Seriously u rock.. u got guts 2 post ur dark life.. But many other's life's happenings are buried unnoticed!!! love ya blog truely..
ReplyDeleteN bcame ur follwer un stoppably!!
ReplyDeleteSaif, finally and fortunately, your precious comment is here. You are right and so is meiguoren. But some things are easier said than done, right?
ReplyDeleteBut then maybe someday hopefully he might read this and realize what he has done. But if he does this to his daughter then nothing in this world can make him realize. For realization is where there's a heart and where there's a soul.
Vijayshryaln, I know that there are darker secrets in this world that are unnoticed. This secret of mine is a secret that many girls hold within their hearts and cry through their nights. Posting this has consoled my heart and I hope it'll help all others like me.
Seriously guys, I'm overwhelmed by your response. Love you all.
Love ya 2 ma frnd!!! worries r opened only 2 get medicine... smile pls!!
ReplyDeleteYeah of course Iti, some things are easier said than done. but you know, being in psychology and knowing about previous incidents like this one, such people hardly have any kind of realization. they're so sick in their mind that they don't feel any kind of shame or guilt. i don't mean to scare you, but just saying it so that you are cautious in the future. the best thing would be that you tell someone whom you trust, but yeah don't force yourself in doing that. if you're not comfortable with it right now, then consider it for some time and think hard about it. believe me, such people don't change. so, be careful and avoid interaction with him as much as possible.
ReplyDeleteTake care!
*Huggs!*
ReplyDeleteLike everyone above, I ask you to confide in someone you trust, someone with the necessary authority. Not to seek justice for a past wrong, but to prevent future incidents that might go further. He has more opportunity to abuse his daughter than he does anybody else.
You're right. It's something that happens to almost every girl. Your pain is our pain. Do take care.
Princess Stefania, I know each one of you is right but I need time to plan out a way to tell my parents about it or to find out who else I can confide in and depend upon.
ReplyDeleteThanks.
beasts need to be punished, and its never late
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